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Saturday, December 12, 2009

....Random Babble....

No matter how easy it seems, the holidays are stressful! I feel like there’s never enough, there’s never everything done that needs to be done, there’s never-ending shopping. There’s trying to make the girls happy and keep their childhood Christmas memories great ones.

Maybe I strive to have ‘the best Christmas’ a little too much. Maybe I go overboard; maybe I just worry too much. I’m stressed! I keep feeling like I’m forgetting something, like I’m going to let my girls down for one reason or another.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m super happy that for the first time in almost 8 years I get to go home and spend Christmas back at home with my family, but for some reason I can’t shake this anxiety I have, this stress, this …. Depression. For the past few days it feels that way to me, for some reason.

I want to do things, I’ve been getting out, but with the snow and super cold days, driving still has been giving me anxiety and I tried to get over that the other day as I took the car and drove hubby to and from work and took the girls out, but even as driving I had super anxiety about the other cars around me, about the car breaking down…

This is just a blah blah blah random blog post I know, I just needed to channel it out. I haven’t even felt like blogging lately. I haven’t been myself lately at all. I’ve gone off of my diet and exercise routine and I can’t get the motivation to get back into it either. I need to do something to get out of this funk.

I think in the New Year, I’m going to change some of the focus of my blog, make it a little more personal to me. I love reviewing and doing giveaways, that’s not going to stop but I think I need to use this blog for myself and my personal reasons as well.

In the New Year you’ll see A Wrestling Addicted Mommy change a bit. I’m going to focus on making my life better, making myself and my family healthier and being a happier me for my girls especially. With using my blog as a motivational tool for myself and hopefully others, I’m going to focus more on my weight battle and striving to get healthier. I’ve done it before, and I’m a good 30-40lbs lighter than I was at the beginning of this year, but that’s not nearly enough.

I’m going to use my blog to publicly display my actions, my weight loss and/or weight gain hoping it will help me get out of this funk because I know that’s one of the main issues of my unhappiness. The other bit, it doesn’t really matter as the situation isn’t going to change anytime soon.

My reason for this ramble? With my Holiday Gift Guide coming to a close, I’ve just realized I’ve been doing so much as far as reviews go that my blog can be used to help ME a little more than just getting products out there….I’m almost burned out at this point and I need to make my blog fun again….

So be on the lookout for a little change/makeover in January and keep following not only for the great reviews/giveaways to come but also a much more personal side as A Wrestling Addicted Mommy …Wrestles With Weightloss!


Brandy said...

((hugs)) Gina. I know what you mean and I've realized that I want to get more of me into my blog and am starting to mix that in with my reviews.

I hope you guys have a great Christmas at home =)

Natalie said...

I'm right there with you! I've turned down so many reviews and giveaways the past couple weeks. I'm going to make my blog more about me and less about reviews too. I'm hoping to only do 2 or 3 a month...if that (once I get caught up on the dozen or so I have waiting to be written). I'm so burnt out on them. And the last two weeks as I've been going through my m/c I've realized how much I like NOT being online all the time. Good luck with all your 2010 goals!